I've been in my own little world

It seems like forever since I've been out here to send something off into the blogosphere, I guess only a week...but a lot has happened in that week. Two photo shoots, editing pictures, deadlines, a visit to the ER. Yes the ER, it sounds scary, but it really wasn't a big deal. A couple of test and two ultrasounds later they discovered I have gall bladder issues, who knew such a little organ could cause so much pain? To make a very long week of doctor visits short I've had two days of fasting, half a week of a clear liquid diet and a surgery is on the calendar. Before I get a ton of messages about  natural remedies and such I've had many talks with many ladies from every aspect of the issue and through much discussion with my husband and prayer I decided to go with surgery. Trust me, even though this is a common, no big deal surgery it was something I wasn't happy about...the word surgery brings anxiety into my heart and crazy thoughts in my head. It was a big deal to me, it is a big deal to me.


Between the lack of food and anxious thoughts I've kind of sunk into my own little world. When I'm faced with these kind heavy decision I tend to internalize...I become an observer in my day to day life, I participate in very little and I focus on one thing. This week I've made it my goal to meet the deadline I had given my customer on her photos, even though I had laundry piling up and a bag that still needed unpacking, clean dishes waiting in the dishwasher and dirty ones in the sink, 365 photos that needed to be posted (and still do), and paper work that need to be done. I never quite felt up to writing a post, I wasn't inspired enough and i was feeling a little sorry for myself too. Although, I have been visiting the blogosphere and reading all your beautiful blogs, I just was not ready to participate this week.


Friday rolled along and I had been deep in thought and prayer all week and somewhere in there I prayed these words "calm my anxious heart" and it is now calm and I have emerged out of my own little world and ready to be inspired, be creative, check things of my list and enjoy my life with out anxious thoughts and a little less bad for you food!

So while I've been off in my own little world observing the world around me, I did manage to get some good shots this past week. As a matter of fact the day of the attack that sent me to the ER I had a fun just because session with my beautiful niece earlier that day! My mom had recently bought me some new props to add to my collection and my darling niece is always happy to be my model and it helps that she always makes such a good one! Plus she had a birthday right around the corner which gave us another excuse to have an impomptu session!

All the hats and bows and the adorable little tutu are my new accessories my mama bought me to keep in my arsenal of props, however this cute little tea rose pink head band featured in the last two pictures, along with the white feather clip that is attached to the tutu are made by my crafty friend, Sary...who happens to be an long time friend!

So here is to joining the world around me again, good health, change and enjoying life everyday! Happy Tuesday everyone!

Brooke